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TBH I’m so over 2017 already , I just feel like this year is only going to be hell. Everything has already went to black and white for me. Like why do toxic people need to keep coming back in my life ? My mom expects me to do all this shit for her when all she ever does is yell at me to clean for her and do shit for her then she never even says thank you and on top of that she’s always calling me names and trying to start fights with me. Like are you trying to test me. I’m so ready to cut so many people out of my life and just start completely new cause nothing makes any sense to me anymore. I know I should be happy and my life could be a lot worse and I need to get passed the past but I can’t do that when I’m constantly reminded of it and it constantly comes back around to me. I’m tired of waking up from night mares trying to catch my breathe . I hate the way my mind is set. I just want to see beauty and be happy and idk I’m a horrible person. I’ve been starting to hate myself more and more each day. I used to be able to make my shitty day better by smoking some bud but getting high doesn’t even help anymore cause once I get high something new happens and it just kills my high and then I’m just over my day.
I don’t go one day without thinking about hanging myself
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